I had a good birthday, lots of fun.
Got to hang out with a new friend today, always a good time.
Got a new cd.
Got a new perspective on life and God and my life.
He's so good like that, not that it's a surprise, but it's exciting.
Get to go to Molly/Maria's for dinner.
Today is a good day.

Today I woke up to a message on my heart, I could not think of words until I began to speak, then they were there.  This was written after the body.
This is what the Lord has given me to say:

even as a child I was marked by the Lord.
He set up good works for me to do.
How could I do anything but follow and obey?
I love His word, it shines like a light, leading me through the dark.
I love His laws, they keep me safe and keep my heart joyous.
His laws are good, for He is good.
His law never fails, for He never fails.
Blessed are the ones who follow His guidelines, they will not fall.
Blessed are the ones who love His word, they will find God.
Blessed are the ones who rejoice in obeying Him, and boast only in His strength, they will find mercy.
Blessed are the ones who give it all up for His sake, they will be as rich as kings.
Blessed are the ones who lose their name for Him, for He will surely call them His own.
Blessed are the ones who serve when it hurts or feels like a bother, their sacrifice will be honored.
Your ways, God, are never heavy.
Your ways, God, keep me from pain.
The only time I know pain in following you is when it conflicts with my flesh.
Burn my flesh away as a refiner's fire does to silver.
For You sit as a refiner at the fire, make me your precious silver, make me as gold.
Forge something beautiful with my life, that You may receive the glory.
All praise is due you, not me.
The Lord is good, His love never ceases.

Bless the Lord, oh my soul.

what is it?
am I truly untrustworthy?
am I a bad person?
why would people say negative things about me?
why would those same people hide in anonymity?
if you have a problem with me, then tell me.
I'm sick of hearing second-hand shit.

Had an a-MAZING time with a girl friend tonight, INCREDIBLE.  I revealed things I normally don't, not even to my guy friends, outside of my Donaldo or Justin.  It was nice, because I know she cares deeply about me and it's not just some dumb game.
Ended on a sour note, though, because I found out that some people have had negative things to say about me, but have not taken it up with me.  She would not reveal who said these things about me, and that bothers me that I don't know who not to trust.  If I came vulnerable with someone, that person should respect that and not air my dirty laundry to anyone else.  Also, if someone thinks something negative about me, it should be brought to ME and ME ALONE first.  It should be made aware that the person feels there is a problem, address it clearly, and if I do not change, or I push them away or will not listen, THEN they should come with another brother or sister in Christ who can listen to the whole story and determine if there is a problem that needs addressing or not.
That said, nothing ever justifies talking ill of someone to any degree behind their back, especially if it you've not brought it up with that person.